I feel so alone right now.
I love my apartment, but I am always by myself.
My roommate is either with her boyfriend or stays upstairs all the time. Even when I’m downstairs doing homework/watching television… She NEVER comes downstairs to just hang out with me.
My knee has been swollen lately and I feel it’s never going to get better. Of course, it’s swelling now that I’m trying to eat more. Yesterday I ate three meals and then stuffed my face with (no exaggeration) half of my banana bread. I don’t understand. I ate meals throughout the day and still stuffed my face? It’s like I can eat everything or nothing at all.
Then this morning my workout was terrible. I could only do 10 minutes of “cardio” which was the arc trainer on 25 resistance because my knee was just so… Stiff. Then I made oatmeal tonight and about 30 minutes later sat and ate about half of the container of that bean salad I made. I feel disgusting.
I can’t stop crying. I just feel so bad right now. My knee is swollen so I can’t even go and bike at the gym to maybe feel better about eating SO much at once. This is horrible. And I’m alone. And it sucks.
This is going to be so hard.