I feel as though no matter how much homework I get finished, I never really get ahead of myself. I have so much I need to do for my student teaching, it’s insane. There’s so much teachers need to pay for, like fingerprinting, FBI background checks, Praxis’ tests, etc, and it just is really expensive and overwhelming. I go to my first day “out in the field” this Wednesday and I’m so nervous.
I’m also overwhelmed because I need to go buy a really cheap pair of dress pants because, unfortunately, my weight loss has made a lot of my clothing too baggy. Also, I want to go to a few grocery stores in a town that’s pretty far to get some food items, but I can never seem to find the time to just relax and drive down. I have priorities but everyone needs a break. I just can’t seem to finish enough work to allow me to get everything completed. Yikes, school is pretty frustrating sometimes.
Also, I’ve been going through some stressful things lately which have scared me a bit. My ring finger has lost sense on the tip of it but my brother told me he gets the same thing and it’s genetic. I know nerve things happen when people get too thin, so before I spoke with him and he cleared up the difference between losing sense in one finger versus losing sense in all fingers or one hand, I was an emotional wreck.
Not to mention right now the Eagles have been intercepted for the
first bajillionth time.
I need a beer.
But anyway, I have really been incorporating so much food into my diet that it’s a little hard to keep up with the time to make food. And the money! I feel like I’m just constantly eating, though, and I don’t like feeling full and uncomfortable. It just makes me want to lay down in my bed and sleep, so I end up not doing my homework. This is not good and I know I need to eat, but I hate feeling full ALL the time. I think I had over 2000 calories for the first day in like a year. And calories from food, not ice cream or candy. People keep saying “Gaining weight is easy, just eat ice cream and junk food.” Well, yeah.. I mean, I would like to do that… But I used to rely on sugar and binging on sugary foods as ways to relieve my depression/loneliness. Now that I’m free of sugar addiction (which I really was addicted), I don’t want to go back to that. I want to gain weight on whole foods and healthier baked goods.
I found a lot of things I like lately which I’ve never tried or haven’t eaten in years. Actually, speaking of sugary foods, I bought fluff the other day for fluffy-nutter sandwhiches. Do you know how long it has been since I’ve had fluff? A long time. I mean, I might have had rice krispy treats or something… But a fluffery– nutter? It’s been a long absence.
Hopefully I can muster up the courage to make one. 😛
Do you enjoy fluffernutters?
Have you ever been addicted to sugar?
Extremely. Actually, I used to go to the grocery store and buy bulk dark chocolate covered things and just eat that all day. Along with
maybe two pumpkin-spiced lattes. I would literally make myself SICK in the stomach. I never made myself throw-up (surprisingly and thankfully) but I would just keep feeding my stomach sugar upon sugar. And that’s ALL I would eat. Yeah. I have had some interesting times.
Are your Sundays full of football?
Always. Sundays for me while I was younger = Football, Italian dinner at my mommom’s house, and new episodes of the simpsons. Haha, the good ‘ole days. Football hasn’t changed, though. I always associate Sundays with watching games.The eagles lost. My weekend = horrible now.
did you have a good weekend?????????