Does anyone else hate this?!
I like it in the morning hours when it’s getting bright earlier but not the dark part.
It makes me sleepy.
Sleepy = bad when you have lesson plans due.
Sorry for the constant state of being “MIA” or leaving you small posts about bursts of emotions. It seems to be a rollercoaster ride throughout this process, BUT any process is a step in a positive direction. The only negative would be giving up which IS NOT an option.
I had my second therapy session and my therapist told me to get a journal. I found this extremely amusing because at Barnes and Noble the day before I saw journals on-sale and thought about buying one.
“But you always write like you’re trying to write a book and it ends up being a fake journal.”
So I didn’t buy one.
After I laughed at the irony with my therapist, I told her I would be embarrassed to read it anything to her because of my horrible grammar.
She started laughing so hard because again, it just proves I try to be a well-known author before just writing down my thoughts.
Perfectionism at its finest, eh? Haha!
So, I bought a journal. We shall see how this one ends up.
Maybe you’ll see it on book shelves one day 😉
I discussed with my therapist the fact I think my knee has a huge impact on my recovery. Honestly, it makes me sick by how much discomfort it causes me. I wake up every day with the feeling of just… Cotton being in my knee. Cotton? Yes, cotton. It feels like it’s stuffed and just… Awkward. I can’t stand walking around knowing I’m only 21 years old with a bum knee. I can’t even go out to bars because I’m most likely on some kind of Ibuprofen or if I were out and my knee flares up, what am I supposed to do? I can’t go to theme parks, malls only for like an hour, can’t go for walks, walk around campus… It’s just a mess. And it really makes me upset to the point I get panic attack/heat flashes when it’s in discomfort. I literally feel like I get sick. It’s pretty bad. She suggested I try acupuncture because I’ve tried almost everything else, but I can’t imagine it is going to help at all. Who knows. Ugh. It doesn’t hurt when I do exercise, but there will be times while I’m walking around it just feels like it’s clogged with peanut butter or something.
I really think it’s never going to get better.
Butttt… The other morning I went to a diner. I got pancakes. A pumpkin pancake and a peanut butter cup pancake. I know this is the most amazing thing you’ve ever read, right? Haha.
Were they good?
Do I know how many calories were in them?
Is that a good thing?
Did I recreate the peanut butter cup pancakes the next day for lunch?
Ohhhh baby, you better believe it.
Yesterday was the first day I haven’t had oatmeal at least once since I came to school, I think.
I got the shakes. I think I need to go on the, “I’m addicted to food” show.
But seriously. Lol
I think I might be addicted to the melty peanut butter effect.
Tomorrow I have a PCTM conference in Penn State.
With all this controversy going on up there (Poor Joe)…
This should be interesting.
Instead of going to the creamery with my Methods class, I’m getting Kiwi Frozen Yogurt.
Is it ED or the convenience of knowing frozen yogurt > creamery?
I hope you all are having a good week! Today is Wednesday so I know the blogging world is happy because of all of the WIAW posts. 🙂