Thank you so much for all of the well wishes and good luck! If my report were based on how much your support means to me, I’d have the healthiest knees in the land of knees; unfortunately, my appointment on Tuesday was… not so good news. The MRI report came back with thickened plica in my left knee. I had this removed from my right knee during one of the billion surgeries I’ve had done in the past 2 years, so I’m very worried about it.
The ultimate result is whether or not I’m going to need surgery. Plica is just a tissue band everyone has but only lucky people (do you love my sarcasm?) get it irritated every now and then. They don’t really do surgery on this anymore before you go through PT, cortisone shots, braces, staying off of it… etc. But the worst part is I’ve done all of this now. On Tuesday, my surgeon gave me a cortisone shot which is pretty much the last leg of whether or not this will go away.
I’m not going to lie. I’m scared. You better be damned I’m upset and frustrated. For the past two days I’ve contemplated why I bother to get out of bed in the morning. My first step is either a pinch thanks to Mr. Plica or a swollen mess thanks to Mr. 4 surgeries; in fact, the only thing I do is to get up and try to do an “upper body workout” and then sit around… all day. It’s devastating, depressing, and cannot stand to think of waking up the next morning to do it all again.
I want to have hope the cortisone shot will do something, but so far it has not changed a thing. I want to believe I will wake up tomorrow and things will be gone. I want to believe my massage therapist will be like, “AH-HA, I’ll just do this and it will go away”. I want to say I’ll stop exercising my legs but I have not exercised since about November. I want this all to go away. But it just seems it doesn’t matter how much I want something, it’s just… There. Always.
I would apologize for this being a depressing post but this is my life right now. I feel so lost and out of focus with where the hell my life turned upside down.
There is one positive in this whole thing. The plica is not “impinged” which means it isn’t folded between two bones which needs surgery ASAP; however, it can turn into this situation very easily.
The only question I seem to be asking myself is, “Why bother”? And it’s scary. Really scary.
Thankfully, I contacted Pro-Tec Athletics to ask them for the best product for plica irritation. I love their products (I know Brit agrees!) and since I have about 1000 braces – not joking – I wanted to get their opinion based on reviews/feedback from others. Jennie contacted me back immediately and gave me the name of her recommended knee brace. Also, she offered to send me one free of charge. It makes me want to cry. People are way to gracious. Thanks again, Jennie, I’ll be reviewing this product soon! I hope it helps!
Hopefully I’ll be able to write an enlightening blog later on but, for now, I’m a huge cry baby.