First, I want to say Thank you for all of the comments.
Honestly, it’s great to know people understand where I am/where I’ve been/where I want to be.
It’s amazing how hearing people just say it’s going to be okay can calm you down.
This is why I love blogging.
I understand and willingly admit I’m in a bad mindset right now.
I’m pretty much in disordered eating limbo.
I know what’s going on, I know how to fix it, and I need to just take the giant leap to get there.
But I just need to step away and think about what I’m doing and how to change.
I need to realize this is something which cannot wait anymore…
And it may be what’s causing all of my problems.
But for now, I’m going to go completely off topic so bare with me.
Most hours of the day, you’ll find me parked in front of my laptop.
I’ll be either reading blogs, reading about knees, or online “shopping”.
Since I don’t have a lot of moo-lah, my online shopping is more like making a continuous online wishlist.
Sometimes this gets hard for me, too.
I struggle a lot with the fact I can’t wear dresses right now…
I can’t wear high heels or any shoes different from walking shoes.
So when I’m looking at cute things online, I even get down because… Well, I have no where to wear them.
It’s really rough to have a constant reminder of the things taken from me.
I search for work clothes when I don’t/can’t get a job doing what I love to do.
I search for cute summer dresses when my knee looks like a boulder and I have some sort of brace on it 24/7.
I search for flip flops and heels which I can never wear or you’ll soon be reading of a broken hip.
I just wear sweatpants and sweatshirts all day, every day.
I know, I know… “That sounds amazing”!
Ehm… Not exactly. You’d wish it until you got here.
Again, How did I get here?
But aside from negative thoughts which seem to be plaguing my mind for hours and hours a day…
I’ll show you some things on my current wish-lists…
Maybe they’re on some of your wishlists, too, and we can be wish-list buddies!
These are more of the dressy side of things.
I just wish I 1.) Could wear these things 2.) Had $$ 3.) Had somewhere to wear these things.
What’s on your wishlist for Spring?