these are my confessions…

Oh, Usher. How you make an appearance in my life whenever I think of a confession I make to anyone.

I know a lot of my posts are on the sour side. I find myself in my own little pity party far too much – and although I seem really like a Debbie downer on my blog – my comments are a totally different story and on the lighter side of things. Most times, I like to be myself to others or the person I wish to be when I’m talking directly to other people, so I’m sure these people find it confusing when they come to my blog and read, “WAHH. I hate my life”! But hey, I have to get it out somehow. I do appreciate all of the kind words and it really is the reason I blog now. Sometimes, someone just telling you things will be okay make them bearable. And that’s all I can ask for right now. 🙂

On another note, I would like to let you all in on a little confession… I am a video game nerd. Well, a former video game nerd. I grew up with two older brothers, so playing Playstation, Nintendo 64, Sega Genesis, Wii, and all other forms of mindless game play were an every day thing for me. After a long day outside of swimming and neighborhood play, I could park myself in front of the television for hours. Once I got to college, I refused to buy any video games because I knew I would fail out. It was a serious addiction.

In high school, I was addicted to a game called Counterstrike. This game is an “old school” version of COD (Call of Duty) for the computer and I could play for hours while calling people “Noobz” and “Hackers” while talking about “LANS” and such things. I was a girl addicted. Plus, the “love of my life” played it so it made things about ten times better. 😉 But there was another game which won my little heart even more…

Please tell me you’ve at least heard of this game. It was made for Playstation and I fell in love with the entire story and game since it was created by DISNEY. During the game, you go throughout different “worlds” which center around different Disney movies and follow a little love story between two characters. I just loved it. I loved it so much I would stay home from school just to play it and I was counting down the days for the release of the second one with a friend of mine. I am not embarrassed to admit I acted sick just to play this game. Hey, I got straight A’s so it wasn’t too bad, right?! After years of hoping for a third game and about to give up my search…

Kingdom Hearts announced they are finally in the making of KH3!

To say I’m excited, would be a severe understatement. The funnier thing? As I was typing on my high school friend’s wall praying she remembered counting down the days with me, she commented on mine saying the same thing. Some things never change. 😉


In case you’re interested… Here’s a little teaser trailer. SQUEEEL!

Okay, enough of my confessions for one day 😉

Are you a gamer?


22 thoughts on “these are my confessions…

  1. Don’t apologize for what you write- it’s your outlet! If writing on your blog about your true feelings helps you and lets you vent, then girlfriend, keep on writing 😀
    I know you are having a tough time with your knee issues…and I’m so sorry about that. I really do think of you often ❤
    I know absolutely nothing about games or gaming..haha! I have never played or been into them…I'm sure that would be different if I had brothers though 🙂

  2. Am I a gamer… Pft! What kind of a question is that?! Huge gaming geek over here! And I can’t even blame my addiction on older brothers because I don’t even have any. But I -did- have mostly guy friends growing up, so maybe that’s why. Anywho, I totally remember spending hours playing video games, and even pretending I was sick so that I could stay home and play. It was Zelda and Mario for me back in those days, and right now I’m sort of in an on-again, off-again relationship with WoW. It’s almost sad to think about how many hours of my life I’ve devoted to gaming, but then again, I enjoyed it for the most part so I guess that’s alright 🙂

    • Yeah, it’s sad to realize how fast time flies when you think you’re playing for like 30 minutes but really it’s been about 2 hours; however, it is a happy two hours as well 😉 And I grew up around ALL guys, too, except for my two best friends. It was a lot of manhunt, capture the flag, wrestling, and video games for me!

  3. Haha you are awesome! I’m actually not a huge gamer. Mostly, because I’m super competitive and I end up in a bad mood if I don’t win. I do like sudoku, but I don’t think that counts as gaming 😉 Oh, I liked mario kart when I was a kid! That was my fave.
    And never apologize for your writing, I know you’re going through a rough patch and if that’s what you need to get out then you’re obviously entitled to do so – it’s your blog! And I come to your blog because of you as a person!
    Sending hugs your way!

    • Thanks, girl. As a person, I just hate being negative all the time so it actually gets to ME after a while! And I’m SO competitive, too, especially with video games and mini golf! I love Sudoku but I think being a math major has something to do with it!

  4. I’m actually not a gamer… my husband is. In fact he’s playing now, lol. But, it’s fun to see this side of you and totally cool that you are one :).

    Don’t apologize for how you write. It’s your blog. If people have an issue, they should not read. This is your outlet to deal with what you’re going through and you’re perfectly entitled to say what you want.

  5. Kingdom hearts forever and ever! I committed wayyyy too much time to that game when it first came out. In fact, after beating the entire game 3 separate times, I decided on the last time to 100% complete the game. Every.single.item was complete… all keyblades collected, all bosses defeated, all mini-quests done. Embarrassing? Perhaps. Feeling incredibly accomplished after this happened? That beat out any other feelings 🙂
    Write whatever you want to Lauren, it’s your output and important to write for yourself.

  6. wowwwww! I LOVE THIS POST!! I learned something about you!! that’s actually kinda cool. I don’t think I can ever become a gamer like that. I like playing video games .. but not like hardcore. eeks. to each their own. I could watch someone play though haha And don’t worry about being on the sour side … be you. if you were 100 % happy all the time … no one would want to read that …

  7. OK I need to rant…and your post gave me the push. I GET SO SICK of people that think just because someones comments don’t match their posts means they are fake or aren’t being a “true blogger.” WTF!?!?! WHO FUCKING cares!!! There is nothing wrong with trying or wanting to be upbeat and happy while commenting on peoples posts, even if your posts are on the sadder side!! I KEEP my posts pretty upbeat, but if I can relate to someones “sadder” post I will share my feelings!! UGH PISSES ME OFF!! End rant.

    With that said..keep doing your think and I love your comments just the way they are!! I am not a big gamer…the extent of my gaming is Mario and Yoshi haha.

    (Just to clarify this was not an attack to was an attack to bitchy bloggers that judge the way people “talk” through their posts.)

    • It’s not the fact of being a “true blogger”, it’s more about being the person I want to be in general. I come off very different than how I am as a person. Until this all happened to me, I was probably one of the most positive people to be around. I had bad days but I would never let them bother me for too long. I was always the person to go to for advice and stuff, so I just feel not myself anymore. The person I am while I’m commenting people is more of the person I want to be. (And you’re rant is 100% okay with me!)

  8. I was never allowed video games growing up… we did just get a wii not too long ago, though….

    I do know that my BFF LOVED KH though! I loved that there were so many disney characters when I would watch her, but I honestly couldn’t even use a controller without failing!

    • I know! I think I just love it even more because it’s centered around Disney! It’s probably a good thing you weren’t allowed video games growing up. They’re extremely addicting.

  9. I’m not a huge gamer, but I used to be obsessed with games where I could control peoples’ lives: Animal Crossing, The Sims, Roller Coaster Tycoon. I obviously used to project my control freak issues onto video/computer game obsessions. Hahaha!

  10. I loved reading about your love of video games! That’s too funny! I would have never guessed you’re into gaming or that you have brothers! I probably knew about them but forgot! You should do a post about them 🙂

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