As many of you know, it’s hard to do things without giving them a try. There are so many days I sit and wonder, “What the hell am I hungry for”? I usually go through my usual “go-to” meals or think about having something else, but wonder if it’s “healthy” enough, etc. These thoughts bother me and sometimes. I really don’t know if I’m hungry for something or I’m eating it for the sake of knowing it’s relatively a balanced meal. Or it’ll be the healthier alternatives (like Puffins over Reeses’ Puffs) and I’ll wonder if it’s really what I want to eat or if I’m just trying to do a fake out. Or maybe it’s just a good alternative? Or maybe I’m just really overthinking things?
I expressed this to someone and the little birdie told me something very intelligent. I need to try things even if I think I don’t think I like them to see how I feel after I eat them. If I enjoy them, great. If I don’t, then I know I really don’t want them and it’s not disordered eating telling me otherwise. This is the reason I kinda, sorta, really like blogging. It’s such a simple thing but sometimes you just need someone to tell you. Insert “Awww”.
So, I got a DQ cookie dough blizzard. In seventh grade, I gave up fast food for Lent and have not gone back (except for Chipotle, Panera, etc.). Ice cream wasn’t included at first, but then I added it. Well, I was craving a blizzard and instead of going through the normal questioning… I decided to go for it.
Surprisingly, there weren’t many negative thoughts while eating it. I knew how many calories were in it and for some reason, I didn’t care. I wanted it. So, I got it. And pretty much the only thought consuming it was, “This is totally worth it. I wonder if it’s possible to be so happy I die right now”? And I went to bed with cookie dough in my bell-ay and woke up alive.
The verdict? Today, I kind of felt blah. Now, I’m not sure if it was necessarily the blizzard but my body does feel kind of off. It might have shocked my system. I don’t really know. But, I’m not really sure if I like it? It’s weird, because I’m no longer craving a DQ blizzard. Actually, I think I’d be okay without one for a while. Dare I say I missed getting a frozen yogurt with tons and tons of sprinkles? Or eating my normal greek yogurt, nut butter, cereal, and fruit meal before bed?
I guess I just like those little gems of sugar.
At least Elmo was happy, too. They gave him a free “doggie dish”. How cute, right?!
The promise I made to myself a while ago is if I can run again, I have to make sure I eat enough and things have to change. I understand “rewarding” yourself isn’t the way to go about things, but I denied myself a lot while I was running and I should have embraced eating whatever the hell I wanted to eat. So, I totally burned enough calories on my .5 mile run in the morning for the blizzard. Totally kidding. But, if I’m blessed with having a second chance at running… I need to keep this promise to myself, for myself.
What’s your favorite DQ blizzard?
What do you crave a lot?
Sushi. And coffee. And ice cream with sprinkles.