I like to make Thursdays a day where I talk about an ED-related topic. It’s easier for me to write a post throughout the week about a struggle I’ve had and post it every Thursday; plus, I don’t like to dwell on recovery because it seems the more I dwell on it, the harder it is for me to actually recover. Thankfully, I found Alex’s blog when I came back from my blogging hiatus and I wish I would have found her blog sooner because the girl is amazing.
After reading one of her most recent posts, I realized how much “doing one thing a day that scares you” helps throughout recovery. After trying to “recover” countless times, I found slipping back into ED-related thoughts very quickly because I wasn’t adapting to my recovery life. Sure, I was eating more but I was not taking myself out of the comfort zone. I was still exercising too much, eating too little, and giving myself way too many food rules.
It wasn’t until I let my food rules go one by one when I really started putting on weight, feeling happier, and feeling healthier. The more rules I let go, the better I felt because I was living life not just going through the motions. I am not going to sit here and say it’s easy because it is not easy at all. It does not matter whether you have an eating disorder or not, if you take yourself out of your comfort zone it is a struggle. It does not matter whether you ask a runner, business man, or a baker if it’s hard to take a day off or change a schedule, because you’ll get the same answer… It is.
You have to take it one step at a time and realize if you switch things up things will not fall apart! One by one you take yourself through all of the rules you have set for yourself and challenge them. This recovery is so different from all of the times I have recovered because I am no longer in denial, challenge myself every day, and step outside of the comfort zone my disordered eating created for myself.
After spending countless months doing absolutely no exercise, I realize taking one, two, or three days off a week will not kill you. At all. I can say these knee surgeries have taught me a lot from the importance of properly fueling your body, as well as the importance of just taking a day off. There is no easy way around it and no short-cuts, you have to challenge yourself to see the way you truly want to live. For me, I found out I don’t miss DQ blizzards as much as I thought but bakery cookies are a totally different story! It’s all about trial and error.
So, if you find yourself in a rut or in a bad place whether it’s physically, emotionally, or mentally… Take things upon yourself and make a change. Do one thing a day which scares you and see how you feel. You might surprise yourself.
How do you get out of a rut?
Have you ever found yourself stuck in a “comfortable” place due to fear of taking a chance?