This rainy and gloomy day describes my entire mindset right now.
My doctor’s appointment revealed what appeared to be cystic lesions or holes forming in my bone… Again.
I have an MRI to determine what is going on in my knee.
All I heard was my mom say, “He thinks it may be Necrosis. Your bone is dying”.
In more cases, a person who develops necrosis is an alcoholic or has some type of disease which disables the body to get proper blood flow to the bone.
All of these things I tested negative through numerous blood tests.
Like your body’s tissue, bones need blood flow to stay alive and sometimes (for no reason) some people develop this disease.
And the bone affected… Dies.
I am all sorts of emotions right now.
The only thing I keep wondering and repeating is, “What did I do to deserve this”?
Until Wednesday (MRI), I will not know if it’s for certain but with all of the things which happened these past few months… I just makes sense.
So, I will get to the posts I want to write with time.
I’ll continue reading your posts and comment because, honestly, blogging keeps me sane.
I just really need time to cry it out and figure this all out.